Shanti Counseling

Jul 12th, 2019

I have been seeing Kayla Bettis - Weber going on a year in August. I had fallen into the deepest depression of my whole life. I had given up and was hopeless due to being involved as a patient in the worst Psychiatry care of my life for several years due to their decisions on my medications. I saw three psychiatrists in two months and I had previously told them that I was falling into deep depression to no avail. They could care less and in one minute they took all my hope away. After being up for 48 hours I was on the edge and would never fear death again. I was miraculously lifted from the edge by a call from a angel. I was in terrible shape, had lost all hope and was tired of living and knew that I only could escape depression by falling asleep or death. I frantically looked for a new psychiatrist and decided to go with a nurse practitioner who immediately got me hooked up with Kayla of Shanti Counseling. I felt really terrible seeking there help considering the terrible shape I was in. I had a couple of Psychiatrists who were not interested in putting me back together again because I was not afraid of death. Kayla went right to work on me. I wasnt sure if it was worth the time at the start. I had gone to a really great group for 2 years and was sure I had gone through everything and had packed and boxed it up nicely. I had only two goals In my life. I wanted to move to Texas and I only wanted three good years like I had experienced on Prozac. I originally wanted five years but after looking at my past life I knew that was to much to ask so I settled on three years. So I was heading to Texas in a semi truck and had all my old feelings, life experiences, pain, losses, and broken dreams in my mind loaded in the trailer and thats when Kayla made me pull over in the middle of nowhere to check my load. As soon as I started to open the door I realized I hadnt tied anything down and the boxes were scattered everywhere and some had been bouncing around so hard that they opened up and the contents lay everywhere. Kayla made me go through all my stuff that was scattered everywhere. I thought I was over everything in these boxes but Kayla made me work through the pieces and repack them in boxes and tie it down. Because of Kayla I know learned a lot about myself and what kind of steel I was forged out of. I had some losses that I never had let go of. Some victories I had not celebrated. I realized that kids are overrated and that I would never get the respect I had earned from them. But something that had caught me off guard was when I looked back and saw all the carnage I was responsible for. It dropped me to my knees. My Depression and ADD untreated for the first thirty eight years of my life and then being treated for 22 years and many times at subpar care and being over medicated. I broke down and may never come to grips with what depression and add had done to me and all it had taken from me. Kayla did turn my life around in ten months which was a big thing miracle for me. She taught me that I had a strong foundation to slowly start to build on again. She taught me to take baby steps and to keep moving forward. She instilled hope back into me and taught me not to ever give up. In the end I would learn my depression is not treatable by medication and now as a last resort Im going to start ECT. I should know no latter then six weeks from Memorial Day if it worked. Kayla will know if I and Diesel my 90# Pitbull with an attitude made it to Texas. Im very sure that Kayla is one of the reasons I survived and came out of the darkest place I have ever been in my life. Between Kayla Bettis-Weber my psychotherapy therapist and Amanda Ferrell my Psychiatric Nurse Practitioner, PMHNP, APRN I received the best care of my life. Wayne and Diesel Sent from my iPhone
May 25th, 2020